Warning :: Misery Me Musings to follow
This year has been one hell of a humongous challenge, in my head most of the time and actually for a fair bit of the time.
We have had a lot, LOT, not go our way.
Many of the situations we find ourselves dealing with are universal - family fragilities, paying the bills, finding work and many of them, when gazed upon from the positive side of the viewfinder, are decidely "1st" world problems - bad investments, expanding debt, extreme job dissatisfaction, commuting time and money costs, money-pit home ownership issues blah blah blah...
My headspace is not helping. I am viewing everything through charcoal-coloured glasses rather than the rosey ones I would prefer.
I so admire those members of the human race born with the happiness switch. Those who are able to work at being happy until it infuses their daily lives without even trying.
My happiness switch is faulty, dodgy to-the-core and badly wired. It allows the negative stuff in way too easily. I try hard to tackle the negative energy super-force field with everything I've got, but often I haven't got much to throw at it and 97 times out of 100 I lose.
Tomorrow is my birthday
I am trying to focus all my energies in to making this a GOOD thing
The ageing battle is a doozy
My body is feeling and showing it
My brain is fighting it every step of the way
I have a monster battle on my hands as Mr negative pants, party pooper, downward digging, don't-forget-the-bad-stuff, part of my psyche is doing it's darndest to be the ultimate killjoy
Here is the GOOD...
I am alive
Apart from normal, ageing issues, I am healthy
I can read and write
I can dance and sing (sort of)
I can laugh and cry
I have a car
I have access to fresh water, free energy, plentiful foodstuffs
I have healthy, independent, beautiful offspring
I have an amazing, calm, supportive, hard-working, caring and loving partner
I live in a spectacular location surrounded only by the beauty and sounds of natural bushlands
We live in our own home
I have made new friends here in Fryerstown
As I finish writing these good points down, I have come to the conclusion that I will NOT write down the BAD
If I start, I know I will be here for hours
I wish there was a vacuum cleaner for the headspace...
pop the tube in my ear and suck all that negativity right outa there
Leave it sparkling clean, shiny and ready to fill with peace, joy and acceptance
How are things with you? Up or Down, Good or Bad?